Tuesday, November 16, 2010

older, not necessarily wiser

In 2005, I posted 183 times. So far this year, I have come up with  42 things to post about.

Back when I started this thing, ideas were certainly not easy to come by, but dude, it wasn't anything like this. The concept of blogging was hitting the mainstream, encased in shrinkwrap with that new-car smell. Now it's a household word--and has all sorts of connotations. People are "over" it. Today's general concept of blogging* is something of a "Snuggie" while 2005's blogging was the  "Slanket:" the high-quality original pushed out of view by incessant late-night commercials hawking the cheaply made knockoff. I've never been swayed by trends. In fact, people who pick up on a fad and drop it for the next one even before understanding the first are irritating. I'm in this for the long haul.

But all of a sudden I'm sad about it. I still love this thing. I mean, without it, I never would have met my future husband. We always thought of our story as unique and interesting, but it's probably happening all over the world now. Which is awesome; The One doesn't always live around the corner from you. I guess I'm just melancholy. The weather is changing. And while we had a gorgeous autumn, now it's dark a lot of the time I'm awake. I don't get to spend much time with my family or my fiance. And there's so very much to do and less and less time to do it. I can't even point to where the time goes.

It's a lot like how things were in the dungeon. But wobblier. And with a touch of arthritis.

*This in no way reflects upon all of you wonderful bloggers out there; you guys are still awesome


Madelyn said...

I remember when I first started my blog. It was so exciting. I wanted to post about everything. Now I struggle to come up with something once a month.

What are you going to do?

Syar said...

It's still weird to me that I started blogging some 5 years ago, and that I met you guys and so many other people that I still talk to through the blog, and that I'm still doing it, but it really was so much more different then. Things like that change, I guess. I can't compare the excitement 17 year old me felt for blogging to what I now feel for it. Sometimes it feels like a chore, but most times I know it is helping me in the best way.

(well, now I'm melancholy. not your fault though, I'm always a hair away from being melancholy)

Anonymous said...

Cadiz, I have sent you a package (to your parents place) that should brighten your days! I hope you enjoy the things I made for you and Jon and that they help you and your family make some decisions about your upcoming wedding. It should get there by tomorrow! We are also having yucky weather, yesterday it looked like 5pm when it was 3pm and today we have high winds. Oh well, I guess that is the way of thing.

Guyana-Gyal said...

I still love blogging even though I don't get much time to do it.

If it hadn't been for blogging, I'd go crazy in wonderland here.

cadiz12 said...

madelyn: I'm going to continue posting every single day this month and as much as i possibly can after that until i get the magic back. i refuse to believe that it's dead.

syar: i'm always a hair away from melancholy, too. which is why it's bizarre that most people consider me to be "such a happy person all the time" (seriously, i heard someone say that as i was walking out of a room).

anon: i am greedily looking forward you checking out your awesome creations! if you don't mind, i may put a pic of them up here.

gg: if it hadn't been for blogging, goodness only knows how i'd have survived the dungeon!

Anonymous said...

I have no problem with you positing pics of my creations:) I hope you like them. You should get them soon.