Tuesday, November 21, 2006

spend my time just making rhymes

it's starting to sink in.

i've been there since saturday, but spoiled because people came to help me bring my meager belongings (not staying long, don't need much). also, cc hung out and celebrated her birthday with me all weekend. but now she's back home with her family.

i've never *technically* lived alone, but for the last two years i've been awake when everyone is sleeping, at work when everyone is socializing and sitting around when everyone is at work. so really, i've been more alone than the average roommate-less person. yet somehow this sucks worse. probably because i'm doing all that same stuff but with a tv that gets 3 (THREE) channels, if i'm lucky.

in the middle of the night at home i know there are breathing bodies in the other rooms. i know that if i choke on a wheat thin and start to asphyxiate, i can run over and collapse onto one of their doors and they'd wake up and call 911. here, i'm surrounded by hundreds of people on dozens of floors, but somehow i think they'd be dialing different digits at 3 a.m. if i tried that maneuver.

i have wi-fi internet access from the lobby. but i'd describe it like having a three-legged dog with cataracts: you can walk him, but it's gonna take a lot of patience. never fear, i'm working the dungeon this week which, despite what it lacks (windows, humans, joy) has got a pretty damn fast computer. it's the only reason i'm still sane.

this afternoon, i got up early and went to an appointment. i walked around and peoplewatched and went inside. then i proceeded to watch 5 (FIVE) judge shows before i went to work. The People's Court was on twice. i can't even remember any of the other judges. but they were all witty and fair. even though the plaintiffs and defendants were insane. or scripted; i couldn't decide. the reason for this is because i somehow used up all my daytime minutes. so i cannot harass my loved ones at their places of business until monday.

so i'd better find something to occupy myself. at least before commuting starts looking good.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

It's a weird feeling to be around people all the time and then all of a sudden be completely alone! Free TV sucks! I hope this ends soon.

Ale said...

i want to jump of the brooklyn bridge... no wait, the verrazano bridge (its higher)....

jazz said...

oh, honey! i love living alone. you'll get used to it....

The Stormin Mormon said...

Ya know, I'm still laughing about the "three legged dog with cataracts," and I instantly understood your pain.

Living alone can get nice for the ability to do whatever the hell you want at any time. I never thought about the death by wheat thin angle of it though.

Anonymous said...

Okay this wheat thin thing - random, or did I miss an important episode of some danger aversion show?

Also, people watching - that's good, right? Unless you happen to make eye contact with a luna--

Never mind. Forget that. Oooh! WV string says: pygsho. And I have no idea why I saw "psycho" when I first read it because cleary it says pig show.

Ale said...

uff that water was kinda cold-ish in the hudson river... i won't be doing that again..

Guyana-Gyal said...

I knew you wouldn't let me down, you'd find some shows to watch hahaha